Terrible Twos Started Early?

Kicking and screaming, flailing and crying. Every little thing or nothing triggers a full blown uncontrollable meltdown. Feels like terrible twos started early for my 19 months old little one.

Sometimes a little soothing and talking can help her calm down. Sometimes she is able to calm herself down. But most of the time she is unconsolable. Throwing herself on to the floor, or throwing herself back into her chair.........because we didn't know what she wanted.

She hasn't tried pointing or asking for things she wants yet, she screams instead of trying to speak. It's a endless game of guessing till we get it right. This mama is trying very hard to fit to her little ones frequency to help teach her some patience.

Time out doesn't work most of the time as meltdowns, her emotions escalates too quickly for us to keep up. We are trying our best to disiplin her. Is she too young for us to introduce punishment? Would we be too harsh if we start using force?

This mama needs a break. This mama needs some advice.....

I Don't Know What I Am Doing ...

Almost 365 days since I last wrote a blog post, Baby K is already 17 months old plus. Which brings me to this moment, as Baby K is glued to the TV watching Ben & Holly's Little Kingdom on Netflix; do I still want to keep this blog alive?

I wonder, has social media such as instagram or facebook make me lazy to blog? Friends has suggested that I blog my journey as a new mum. Share my food adventures and craft adventures. But everytime I get time to myself, I'm either too tired or too lazy.

Since the day Baby K was born, my daily schedule follows hers, I have tried creating routines for her which usually results in a total out of control mess. Maybe I'm not strict enough.

Baby K hasn't started speaking yet, and I am starting to feel the pressure. Maybe I'm not reading or speaking enough to her.

Baby K has really short attention span and would rather copy everything I do. Maybe she has too many toys or I'm spending enough time playing with her.

Baby K throws a fit whenever she doesn't get her way or things don't turn out the way she hopes. Maybe I allow to be spoilt or I spoil her.

I rely on the "babysitter" TV/ipad when I want to get things done or craft. Maybe I shouldn't yet maybe I should.

Most of the time I don't know what I'm doing, but I try to adjust and figure things out. I wonder how my mum used to handle me .....

Don't get me wrong, being a mum is actually pretty awesome. No doubt challenging and tiring, sometimes you just want to explode. But when the little troublemaker flashes you her sweetest smile, or gives you a surprise sneak hug; totally worth it!

So am I going to take this blog offline or will I continue to try to blog more often? Still undecided.