Year 2006 started out a blur for me.
It was like, 'yay another new year with the guy i 'loved'.' but few months later he left me and asked me to move on with no chance at all to fix whatever problem there might be. i was given all kinds of reasons which were obviously plain excuses. everyone i knew was shocked but not as shocked as i was. i was to determine to find at least the tiniest chance to fix things but what he said in reply killed me slowly. i could not sleep. sleeping was difficult. facing people was worse but i learned to put on a face. talking to people was hard. i had to pretend to be fine when i was literally dying inside. i felt like dying on the outside too. but it was my friends that i have that kept me sane. thanks you all.
but i can say i'm over it all now. i've met some new friends. got closer to some old friends that i never spoke to before inthe past. broke a few hearts (hated that). hurt a few of my closes friends. i'm so sorry i didn't mean to. i guess my heart just got cold. don't worry. i'll get myself fixed soon.
i got a job. am working for about 3 months +. got a body piercing when i got my 1st paycheck. it was so fun!!!!
well most of 2006 was like messed up shit for me...but there were good times towards the end of it. i'm fine now. i will be better. and i'm still really sorry for those i hurt. i know i suck at apologies and suck at controlling my temper.
oh well its a new year!! lets start over!!! cheers~!
