American Idol 2009

Kris Allen is so adorable!

Adam Lambert is sexy!

Who deserves to be American Idol 2009? In my eyes, BOTH deserve to win!

But there can only be one.

Can't wait for more Kris and Adam when they start their career melting our hearts with their awesome vocals <3

Short stroll on the beach

The last time i visited the beach was like....ages ago...i can't remember when....but normally the beaches are just plain filthy!!!

But this morning my cousin took me n my sister to sentosa beach to take his dog for a swim...the beach was so peaceful so clean...the water was great!! sadly i don't have a swim suit so i didn't swim so i walked along the beach, feeling the cold soothing water tickle my feet and the smooth fine sand between my toes...relaxing short time but all worth it...everyone needs a break once in awhile even if its only for half an hour.

It was fun, snap some pics for fun too...may upload them soon in my photos...well back in the house chilling and just....chilling and see what's needed to help around with.

Ciao for now...i know...i know...i'm bored that's why i'm blogging again...talking crap...babbling...wasting time...don't read tho ...only if you wanna see a person babble..bla...

Silly Girl

Am in singapore now to celebrate CNY with my cousin and his family...and silly me never activate my roaming before i cross border which leaves me without a phone for a week...which is good in a way cuz i kinda over spend on my bill this month.

Singapore...feels much more peaceful compared to kl, yea its fast pace and all yet still kinda relaxing in a way..so clean! I went to the new mall last night that is facing directly towards Sentosa island, my cousin took us for Italian which was really yummy!! i had Fettucine pasta with smoked salmon and creamy tomato..yumm yumm and sorta had half of Jenn's Pork Salami pizza..the crust is super thin!! crispy and chewy..tho the cheese is kinda salty.

Al tho i may not have a phone to use for a week...luckily dad brought both his laptops so me n Jenn can stay in touch with you all before we go to bed or when we are not going out or anything.

Peace to all and that's all for now folks. Ciaoz.

Overview of my 2006

Year 2006 started out a blur for me.

It was like, 'yay another new year with the guy i 'loved'.' but few months later he left me and asked me to move on with no chance at all to fix whatever problem there might be. i was given all kinds of reasons which were obviously plain excuses. everyone i knew was shocked but not as shocked as i was. i was to determine to find at least the tiniest chance to fix things but what he said in reply killed me slowly. i could not sleep. sleeping was difficult. facing people was worse but i learned to put on a face. talking to people was hard. i had to pretend to be fine when i was literally dying inside. i felt like dying on the outside too. but it was my friends that i have that kept me sane. thanks you all.

but i can say i'm over it all now. i've met some new friends. got closer to some old friends that i never spoke to before inthe past. broke a few hearts (hated that). hurt a few of my closes friends. i'm so sorry i didn't mean to. i guess my heart just got cold. don't worry. i'll get myself fixed soon.

i got a job. am working for about 3 months +. got a body piercing when i got my 1st paycheck. it was so fun!!!!

well most of 2006 was like messed up shit for me...but there were good times towards the end of it. i'm fine now. i will be better. and i'm still really sorry for those i hurt. i know i suck at apologies and suck at controlling my temper.

oh well its a new year!! lets start over!!! cheers~!

Lame Girl

I'm feeling pretty lame now maybe cause i'mtoo bored cuz i have to go to work even though the office is practically empty as most of the staff are at penang for the company's annual dinner.

How i wished i didn't have to work today and tomorrow and also ... why didin't the office close? it's pratically empty...its even more quiet than a saturday at work.

It's been awhile since i played maple story ... i have been neglecting my little baby and she's itching to level up ... also my lameness brought into the mood of getting a piercing done ... which is exactly what i did and my piercing is 2 weeks old, i'll add photos of it ... when it doesn't look so gross anymore .. haha ..

And now back to acting busy ... lame ...

Don't wanna wake up

How i wish that sometimes i don't have to wake up. Wish that i can just stay in slumber and not have to face these things. But then again, sleeping gives me nightmares lots of times, then wouldn't consider as slumber now, does it? *sigh*

I feel so tired at times. So tired of things are for me. I'm not complaining or whinning. I just need a break. I'm so tired of having friends in love with me, not that i'm self praising or being proud at myself in saying this, it is flattering sometimes knowing that someone has the hots for you, but it can get pretty exhausting, making new friends and meeting new faces yet watching your back to see if they have any other intensions, i even have to becareful not to send the wrong messages, cuz i tend to get along better with dudes, so dangerous, and cuz yes i know, girls are complicated and there's not explanation why cuz i dunno why either, i want to just hang with my friends without a care. I hate breaking friendships, i hate losing friends to this 'love game', give me a break. Why am i mentioning all these? I really do need a break, really ... i feel like i'm drowning, suffocating literally ... all i want now are friends whom i can trust my loyalty to as just friends, me fellow pals out there who already know what kind of mess i'm in, thank you all so much for just being there.

-+ Jo +-

'The Blame'

The feeling where people say stuff that make you feel all guilty or worst, angry. The dreadful 'blame' game as i call it, getting the 'blame' thrown at you to shoulder every single time something doesn't go according to plan. My sister and i have a fare share of 'blames' thrown at us but my sister is fortunate enough not to have to face as much shit as i do altho she thinks she does. Getting blamed for every single problem or difficulty that occur in this home is a norm. to me now. Years of practise and patience and bottling up. But a girl can only handle so much.

Everyone in life will face the 'blame' game, it's what we do, as humans, 'blame' each other. But everyone has limits to. Do you know what kind of damage 'blame' is capable of inflicting? Not many know, but i can tell you some, cause i've been there. There comes a point where the person you 'blame' willstart to 'blame' themselves believing that it WAS their fault that things are messed up. I will not give in to that cuz, yes problems will only occur when it involves an individual. But shit happens, it's life, deal with it.

Stop 'blaming' me for every single thing or arguement that happens in my home. Though apparently i'm suppose to be the 'lady' of the house being the eldest girl. I have my limits too. Not every problem that occurs is my fault or anyone's fault but your own.

*Lost in thought* Jo.