Don't wanna wake up

How i wish that sometimes i don't have to wake up. Wish that i can just stay in slumber and not have to face these things. But then again, sleeping gives me nightmares lots of times, then wouldn't consider as slumber now, does it? *sigh*

I feel so tired at times. So tired of things are for me. I'm not complaining or whinning. I just need a break. I'm so tired of having friends in love with me, not that i'm self praising or being proud at myself in saying this, it is flattering sometimes knowing that someone has the hots for you, but it can get pretty exhausting, making new friends and meeting new faces yet watching your back to see if they have any other intensions, i even have to becareful not to send the wrong messages, cuz i tend to get along better with dudes, so dangerous, and cuz yes i know, girls are complicated and there's not explanation why cuz i dunno why either, i want to just hang with my friends without a care. I hate breaking friendships, i hate losing friends to this 'love game', give me a break. Why am i mentioning all these? I really do need a break, really ... i feel like i'm drowning, suffocating literally ... all i want now are friends whom i can trust my loyalty to as just friends, me fellow pals out there who already know what kind of mess i'm in, thank you all so much for just being there.

-+ Jo +-