Loneliness

Lonely ... Many people feel lonely ... doesn't matter who it may be ... they may have plenty of people around them or none ... we all still feel lonely sometimes.

There are many kinds of loneliness ... lonely because you have no friends ... lonely because you have no family ... lonely cause you have no partner ... lonely cause there's something missing deep down your core and you don't know it exists.

I feel lonely .. not because i have no family, neither it be that i have no friends. I have some friends, some very dear friends who are always there for me and i for them. Why do i feel lonely you may ask. I feel like i have lost a part of myself for almost half a year. I've lost a part of who i am and what i am.

I've lost something so dear to me ... i've lost the sense of loving someone ... i've become so fearful when it comes to loving a person as more than just a dear friend. I want to share my feelings, share my thoughts with someone special ... with someone i'll love ... with someone i will fall in love with one day. But how can this work when i keep letting this fear take over me. What would happen when the day that i meet my special someone comes by ... will i run away with fear ... or will i stand and face it with all i've got.

I miss having someone that cares about me, i miss holding hands, i miss cuddles, i miss kisses, i miss everything ... i'm not complaining ... i'm not ranting ... i'm not asking for attention ... i don't want pity ... i just feel lonely ... i'll get over it ... one day.