I am terrified ...
Terrified of the world ...
... of the people
... of making friends then losing friends
... of falling in love then getting torn apart
... of being myself and being someone else
I am terrified of myself ... but i am more terrified of losing myself ... i am what i am ... just take it or leave it ...
Upon reaching home from work today ... looking at the empty spot by the door where Bubbles cage used to lay ... a sense of emptiness over shadow the atmosphere.
Just have to get used to not having Bubbles greeting us each time we walk pass her cage. Looking at the freshly covered grave was just too much to handle ... not being able to see Bubbles with her white white fur and pink nose sniffing the air for snacks is just too sad... i couldn't help but shed a few tears cuz i won't be able to rub her lil head anymore ...
Pets come and go ... but once you get attached to them ... they are family ... you will miss them once they go ...
O well ... at least she and her brother together with her friend enjoyed their stay with us ... those greedy lil furballs ... there's never enough watermelon skins for them =)
Peace.
I'm not looking forward to going home later ... i cannot bear to see my mum's sad face ... or see an empty, quiet cage ... not hearing Bubble's greeting for "Snack please?" ... Sigh ... i need some air ...
I miss lil Bubbles ... she so adorable ... so cheeky ... so greedy ... so spoilt ... sigh ... Good Bye sweet Bubbles ... We miss you.
In Loving Memory of :
Chestnut, Patches and Bubbles.
Bubbles ... the final and strongest of my guinea pigs.
She's going home soon.
She's old ... she's almost 8 years old.
Go in peace now lil Bubbles ... we won't forget you ...
Your greedy lil face, the way you poke your nose up when we walk pass.
The way you call for attention ... or a snack or two ...
Your thick white fur and pink nose ...
We will never forget how you would make that cute face just so we would play with you and spoil you with snacks, pets, cuddles and love...
Bubbles don't worry ... just go now and be happy ... Patches and Chestnut are waiting for you ... we'll be fine ... they miss you more. We love you always.
My friends ... nearly more than 95% of friends are have are of the male gender, i cannot explain why but i just tend to get along with guys better compared to my fellow female species. Having lots of guy friends and always hanging out with them either in groups or just the two of us. Is it so wrong? Is there some rule stated somewhere saying that a girl and a guy cannot hang out?
Just cause a girl and a guy like to hang out together for a drink, a show, a meal or just for the fun of it to catch up and have a good laugh... doesn't mean that they like each other more than friends. Correct me if i am wrong but i know i am not in some way. What has the world become? When two guys or girls are close friends people label them as homo or fag. And when a girl and a guy are good friends people say that they are dating or hooked up.
What the heck!!! And just cause i always hang out with guys doesn't mean i'm a flirt ... dudes!!!i don't even know how to flirt!!! This morning when i told my mum i was going out for a show with my friend, she asked if it's a guy. Then she started yelling at me saying stuff like :"Why you always go out with guys? Alone somemore? Why do you date so many boys? No wonder boys dare not approach you cuz you are always with diff guys!" What the bloody #@^&!!!! The last date i've ever been to in my whole life was with my ex before he left me!!! Are you calling your daughter a slut!! For Christ's sake .... open your eyes a lil.
I have to admit i feel more comfortable making friends with the male gender, but not ALL male gender cuz some tend to be real arses ( no offense ) ... so? what's wrong with that? How do i tell the genuine dudes apart from those i-just-wanna-befriend-you-cuz-i-think-you're-cute dudes? It's just natural instinct...you just know. These pals i have are my brothers, my dudes, my buddies!! What more can i say? Nothing. I just want to be able to have friends without having my mum always on my case and cursing me. Let me be me ... for once.
Love to all my buddies ... yes ... i love my pals ... you monkeys know who you are ... here's a side of me that i've never shown up till ... now... enjoy it while it lasts ... *evil grin*
Friday? It's already friday? Alright!!! I can go back to my 'sleeping' habits tonight!! Sweet~~ I am so not used going to bed early ... i end up waking feeling more blur than fresh -_- ... I miss my online and chatting and gaming days .. although obviously i still come online only i'm too blur to chat. O well it's time to go to work dudes and dudettes .. Jo signing off~
Girls by nature love shopping ... right? ....RIGHT?
Hahaha.... i for one ...get irritated when shopping ... especially for shoes!!! argh!!! i don't like shopping for shoes cuz i have big feet! yes... i have big feet... and no i do not like girly shoes ... why can't i go to work bare footed or maybe in my adidas =p ..
Went to Lot10 after work today to meet my mum and go for Isetan's pre-sale ... and man did i get annoyed trying to find work shoes... didn't get any in the end but bought some work clothes and i'm am broke!!!! My wouldn't give up trying to get me to try on shoes and choose a bag for me ... i kept perstering her to give up cuz number 1, i'm hungry and number 2, my knee is strating to hurt again ..cuz through out the wahole day today i couldn't walk normally...i even forgot i had a sprained knee.. hahaha... Up till today ... i still can't get myself to enjoy shopping ... i just stop when i see something i like ...get what i need then i'm off. I don't browse every outfit >_< ...
O well ... bizzare girl signing out for now ... Peace.
